心中

這個冬天, 自己開車上來紐約州的水牛城
為的是看那尼加拉瓜大瀑布, 還有從小到大就沒怎麼見過的雪
當我第一次看到大瀑布邊上三英寸厚的雪, 好幾日甚至一周都不會化
感覺就像是來到了仙境般的...
一個人傻乎乎的在四處踩雪, 捏雪球玩
或許是因為生命中一直缺少這樣美麗的雪, 我才會如此的珍惜如此的喜歡
這是生命中的美好, 我只希望自己能夠在以後的年歲裡, 可以有足夠多的雪花

最近也從新認識的好友那裡得知了過去某個人的一些情況
我只能說, 若要人不知, 除非己莫為...
更是覺得在夏天勇敢的甩掉某個毒瘤, 是非常正確的行為
這算是非常好的一件事情, 值得慶喜

大瀑布真的好美, 聲音非常的大... 轟隆隆的
往上遊走一點是急流, 看著那些不斷往前奔騰的水流
突然體會到自己也應該move on了, 怎麼好意思呆在原地不動呢
就算知道前面是激流往下的瀑布
也是要往前衝的不是麼?
或許那不是自己自願的, 因為有可能是身後有人在不斷的把你往前推
但是這又何嘗不是一件好事呢?
衝下瀑布的水, 經歷了高度和險度的磨練, 成為了更好的水
更清澈, 更溫柔, 更難以阻止
最重要的是
衝下瀑布的水, 她已經知道自己可以survive下來世界三大瀑布之一
那又有什麼是不可以survive的呢?

大丈夫だって頷いた
私はとても強いから

冬日情懷

這是第一個不在南方度過的冬天呢
有時候早上起來, 荔枝上面都是一層薄薄的冰
每天早上都要花5分鐘來熱車, 好好的保護心愛的荔枝
更是下過了雪, 讓寶貝荔枝第一次遇到了雪白雪白的美好事物
以前有時候總是會想, 如果當時留在了Texas, 現在的生活又是怎樣的呢?
的確那裡有我熟悉的一切, 但是那只會讓我止步不前
就像是當時AYU的歌所唱的一樣
"使終無法離開這裡, 只因這裡有我最熟悉的風景
因為膽怯遲遲踏不出的一步, 日積月累中不知不覺已成為一條長長的路"
我不希望自己會變成那樣
所以毅然離開了家人, 離開了摯友, 離開了那個自己曾經想要和他到永遠的男人
一個人獨自對著月亮因為寂寞而垂淚的夜晚也不是沒有過
無論有多難, 自己都沒有想過要回到Texas, 一次都沒有
因為在某一個週日的早晨, 我打開門, 看到滿眼雪白的時候
過去那一切的苦, 都不算什麼
因為這才是我想要的
一個遠離了熾熱, 遠離了沒有雪的地方
自己是無比的開心的
有些時候, 自己要跳出固定的框框, 才可以有新的領悟
過去的那一年的浮躁, 現在的自己終於有機會好好的沉澱一下
和窗外安靜的雪一樣
要再次好好的審視自己, 找回過去那個自己喜歡的自己
而不是那個會做出一些讓自己覺得羞恥的事情的自己
我在期待一場大雪, 還有更好的自己

Walk Away (Remember Me)

最近不知道為什麼瘋狂的迷戀上了這首歌
MV也非常的有意思, 裡面的女主在街上意外遇見了前任
他身邊已經有一個非常漂亮的新女友
但是在視線交錯的時候他們兩個還是無法控制的走向了對方
他們兩個的美好過去全部都在眼前閃現
可惜就在他的手快要碰到她的腰的時候
她突然就想到了當初她為什麼會決絕的離開深愛的他
曾經的美好遠遠比不過他給她帶來的傷害
她淡然的一笑, 輕輕的吻了他的額頭, 轉身離開
walk away
and that's what i am gonna do too



(PAULA DEANDA)
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
(I'm gon remember you
You gon remember me)
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
(Yeah, i'm gon remember you
You gon remember me)

(The DEY)
Yeah, you gon remember me boo
I'm gonna remember you too
I can't forget all the crazy sh*t we used to do
You was doin' too much
I wasn't doin' enough
That's what your friends'd say
You got a man anyway
I can't explain it neither I ain't never wanna leave ya
Hell yeah it's hard to walk away when I see you
When I see you I remember the day
you put your shoes on and moved on before I could say..

(PAULA DEANDA)
I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question..

Does she rub your feet
(When you've had a long day?)
And Scratch your scalp
(When you take out your braids?)
Does she know that you
(Like to play PS2 'till 6 in the mornin' like I do?)

I can't exlpain this feelin' (yeah)
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on (uh huh)
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gon remember you
You gon remember me)
Walk Away
(Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk Away
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
Walk Away
I can't forget how we used to be

Guess I gotta live my life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afriad
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind I can't help but question...

Does he kiss me on the forehead
(Before we play?)
Show up on my doorstep
(with a bouquet?)
Does he call in the middle of the day
(just to say)
Baby I Love You
(Like you use to)

I can't exlpain this feelin' (yeah)
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on (uh huh)
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You gon remember me)
Walk Away
(Forever you will live in my memory)
Walk Away
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
Walk Away
I can't forget how we used to be

(PAULA DEANDA with The DEY)
I'm gonna remember you
You gonna remember me
The things we did, the way we shared our fantasies
Just you and me
My friend, My love, My family
How did we lose a love that seemed meant to be?
Sometimes I kiss her
And wish that it was you I'm kissing
Sometimes I miss him
And wish that it was you i'm missing
Sometimes I hug her
And wish that it was you I was huggin'
And I realize how much i'm buggin'
(I MISS YOU)

so hard to express this feeling
cause nobody compares to you (to you)
and you know she'll never love you like i do

i can’t explain this feeling
i think about it everyday
and even though we've moved on
it gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you, you gonna remember me)
walk away, walk away
(I'm gonna remember you, you gonna remember me)
walk away

I'm gonna remember you
you gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
you gonna remember me

2014 New Year Resolution (Under Construction)

1. Learn how to cook, both the Chinese and the American ways
2. Become a morning person, get up at 6:30 or earlier
3. Workout at least once a day
4. Read at least one book a week
5. Eat out no more than twice a week
6. Follow the calorie count diet strictly, no starving, but no unhealthy foods
7. Pass the JLPT Level 1 with a score of 130
8. Go to Paris
9. Save at least 10% of my salary

To be continued...